Priers et soucis d'Ax

Prayers and concerns of Ax

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Prayer to my friends

I have learned that God might not listen to my prayers, but He might listen to yours. But I never cease to pray to the Lord Our God and many of my petitions has been granted dispite me being a bad boy in front of Him wih all the sins that stained my life.
I take this Christmas season to pray for all my friends and acquaintances from all over the world. I pray that Reni were given the strength to face her setbacks in Jakarta. I pray for Vicky to learn to forgiive and be able to get over me. I pray for Rahul to have a blissful marriage and happy family, I pray that Liza have a good career ahead and her mom safe travel, I pray for Tomo to have great life in Philipplines and learn the culture and language and experience all that he always wants to have. I pray for Darryl to get a new job soon as possible to stand on his own foot in Texas. I pray for Megumi to have a blissful marriage next year and earn a lot of money to get their own house.
For all other friends and acquaintances that I have forgotten to mentioned here but who also have touched me in my life. I pray that God gives you strength to face the coming years.
I lift this prayer at the heavens gate and may all the angels bring our petition to ou Lord Jesus Christ. As I say the Lords Prayer+ and Hail Mary+.

Merry Xmas and happy new year to all.

ax

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Prier pour VK

I had to break up with VK three months ago. I did that on the phone without telling her I have another girlfriend here. I plan not to tell her at all. But things develop the other way around, the other day she email me and I had to admit to her about the truth of having girlfriend here.
But since we had broken up, I owed her no explanation. There is somehow a moral responsibility or perhaps guilt in my heart. She demand my explanation and seems to be at a loss of why I made such quick decision. Ira said I am heartless, ruthless, and cruel.

I don't have to answer to anyone. I try to live my life the best I can and in the process I might hurt someone or break someone's heart. This is inevitable. I have tried my best to keep the love I had with VK, but my reasons told me differently. I had to go on with my life in Japan. Survive and live fully, I can't have her in Taipei, and live her alone. I don't want this. I am practical so I did it practically. We all get hurt sometimes.

I pray for VK from the deepest of my heart that she could recover from the wound that I caused her. In the name of God, I seek forgiveness for whatever harm I had done her. I do not mean to hurt anyone, but my decision seems to turn her life upside down. I pray that the Lord bless her with some new friends who would take care of her and cajole her. I pray also that If I can in anyway compensate the pain that she undergone, I would be willing to do whatever in my best position to fulfill her demand. Lord, please bring peace to our hearts, and redeem whatever hatred that we might bear.

I pray this in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.